idk. like until this day I wish i was rumi neely. Like I know I shouldnt be moping around wishing my life was like someone elses and I should get up and make my life happen.. But fuck.. I dont know where all this negative energy and thoughts are coming from. Here I am 138 fucking pounds at 5'3" and I should be 110 pounds and im just moping around. yeah sure I was 143 but i dont know i dont have the same energy and shit like i did when i was going into junior year. Rumi was my biggest inspiration. I just wanted to be her and unil today I still do. I went down to lie 122 pounds. I had horrible eating habits, but i was still eating healthy food. I dont want to turn into a Abeer nasir. Like I want to start dieting again